ABSILVER's World

.I know with what happened in Newton, that what is below is really trivial in comparison.  I also know that I should write something, but I don't know what to write about a senseless tragedy.   Would gun control have prevented this?  if all teachers had guns would they have shot him before he shot anyone?  What can you do to protect children without them feeling so protected that they don't grow up with the sense to take care and secure themselves?  but, I don't know these answers... so I am writing about something pretty trivial, unless you are an artist or a miffed iphone owner. OK.. I am not really mad at Ford. OK.. Only slightly mad at MicroSoft and..  Apple I have a bone to pick with you. So.. how do these all come together?  I got a new iPhone 5, at the same time I got a new Ford Fusion with their Sync technology developed by Microsoft. So... it all starts.. with I had backed up my iphone4 and all the music to the iCloud. (Apple's version of the Matrix ap

I have a confession to make.  I hope it doesn't come off as being a Grinchy moment.  But, I don't understand Christmas.  Please, Fox News, I am not part of the official attack on Christmas. Please, understand, I know that it is the Celebration of Jesus Christ's birthday.  I know something about a manger scene, because I have seen them all over since I was born.  Even saw a live rendition at the Radio City Christmas show, and even though many think it is wrong I think it is a Christmas celebration so it should be there. I get the present giving part, and the family and the joy of being together.  I understand the warmth and caring.  The beautiful holiday windows, and even to some degree the pageantry of Santa Clause. Not sure I understand the symbolism of the Christmas Tree, stockings, or the basic traditions around Christmas.   Cause, I haven't celebrated as many of you have your whole life. Unlike many of my Jewish friends, my parents didn't create an envi

I am on another flight, and yes it is time to write for my blog. Last Sunday, was my 48th birthday.  As much as I tried to hide the fact that it was my birthday, from Facebook to just not mentioning to anyone it happened anyway.  This birthday may have come to pass as one of the most interesting and best of my life so far.  You must understand my birthdays growing up were heavily influenced by being born the day before Thanksgiving.  It is frankly more about my birthday consistently being around a holiday which everyone celebrates.  I don't remember feeling somehow left out of the birthday fun.  I wasn't a popular young kid.  So, the idea of birthday parties and big events in school would have been more out of the norm for me and made me feel quite uncomfortable.  I remember the one birthday party Mom hosted for me at the house.  I don't have much memory of it other than there was a huge ordeal to make sure we really did keep kosher and the food served would be ko

As I sit here, three days post-election, I worry about the future of the Republican Party.  This may come as a surprise to many. I had much to celebrate Tuesday night.  I believe the best man won to lead our nation.   I am glad to see gains in the senate for women.  The idea of a solid and balanced Supreme Court seems pretty solid.   A woman's right to control her body is safe.   Frankly, a balanced Supreme Court will be for a fairly long time.  I am sure that many that bemoan Obamacare are happy they and their children will continue to have benefits till they are 26 on their employer’s plans.  We can celebrate that the election occurred without the entire rancor and legal challenges that the press warned us of.    That with all of our challenges we have conducted an election and the success of our process for elections is not perfect, but by gosh it does work and we have peace on our shores post election. The president made his case in his acceptance speech for the imp

Ever have a thread on a sweater ? Or a seam on a pair of pants with a thread hanging? Or a book awkward on. Shelf ? You know if you pull on them, the shelf will fall, the pants will be ruined,or the sweater will fall apart.   No matter how I try not to, I am going to pull to see what happens. More to the point, I will follow my instincts even if I know I am going to get hurt.   If, I think it it is necessary.  Whether it is to protect me, someone I love or this need to discover the truth and to be true to myself. I sit here hurting, and once again single.  I pulled the thread of truth and found heartbreak at the end. Maybe I am too rigid ?  But at the core of my appearing to be rigid is my strength.  I have written about the price of being in control of me.  I sit here sad but not willing to give that up. I could be more spontaneous ? But that doesn't translate to jumping on roller coasters or risking my career or stability. The truth is, I like who I am.  I am grateful

Apparently I am my car... For those of you that didn't know, I actually got a new car in July.  Oddly, I think in 3 months I have driven it a little over 650 miles, but that is primarily because of travel and Provincetown.   I owned a 2010 Mercury Milan, and liked it.  Was about to come off of warranty so traded for a 2012 Ford Fusion.  Realizing that they had a new model coming out so I could negotiate a fair deal. What does this have to do with me? some people end up looking like their pets apparently I end up acting like my car.  I have owned Buicks, Nissans, Volvos, and even and SUV.  Frankly, I don't think most of them would have made it on the cover of MotorTrend, but I liked most of them...  So here I am in a 2012 mid-size sedan.  It is very similar to the Milan, of course, but a little bit upgraded.  V6 engine, leather seats, and the queerest (I must say) ambient lighting I have seen.  You can change the colors and seems like almost every color in The Rainbow.

I have had what must be one of the most amazing four weeks I have had in quite a while.  I feel like I have been reconnected with the core of my being that was always there but I needed to peak inside.  I mentioned in a recent blog about the need of control.  Not of the world around me but the cost of actually making sure I feel in control of me and my destiny. One can only say in the last few years, I have made some changes in my life.  If you looked at my life ten years ago, it would look similar maybe on paper as they say.  Well maybe, I was part of my own family.  I lived in New Jersey in a great home and was able to spend winters in Fort Lauderdale, with Harry and Daisy.  My job was more high profile, I think I was leading WebSphere sales for general business worldwide and trying to make a difference in a business environment in a large company, IBM.   Life was more about phone calls, and getting on planes and driving new action and activities to make a difference as it wa