I am what I am!
Ever have a thread on a sweater ? Or a seam on a pair of pants with a thread hanging? Or a book awkward on. Shelf ? You know if you pull on them, the shelf will fall, the pants will be ruined,or the sweater will fall apart. No matter how I try not to, I am going to pull to see what happens. More to the point, I will follow my instincts even if I know I am going to get hurt. If, I think it it is necessary. Whether it is to protect me, someone I love or this need to discover the truth and to be true to myself. I sit here hurting, and once again single. I pulled the thread of truth and found heartbreak at the end. Maybe I am too rigid ? But at the core of my appearing to be rigid is my strength. I have written about the price of being in control of me. I sit here sad but not willing to give that up. I could be more spontaneous ? But that doesn't translate to jumping on roller coasters or risking my career or stability. The truth is, I like who I am. I am grateful