I am what I am!

Ever have a thread on a sweater ? Or a seam on a pair of pants with a thread hanging? Or a book awkward on. Shelf ?

You know if you pull on them, the shelf will fall, the pants will be ruined,or the sweater will fall apart.   No matter how I try not to, I am going to pull to see what happens.

More to the point, I will follow my instincts even if I know I am going to get hurt.   If, I think it it is necessary.  Whether it is to protect me, someone I love or this need to discover the truth and to be true to myself.

I sit here hurting, and once again single.  I pulled the thread of truth and found heartbreak at the end.

Maybe I am too rigid ?  But at the core of my appearing to be rigid is my strength.  I have written about the price of being in control of me.  I sit here sad but not willing to give that up.

I could be more spontaneous ? But that doesn't translate to jumping on roller coasters or risking my career or stability.

The truth is, I like who I am.  I am grateful for a great family and family of friends that love and like me as I am.

I am also grateful to learn that there is room in my heart for love.

I also realize how much I really want a puppy.

Sincerely, love and hugs!

Brian

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